Ninaivo Oru Paravai Ch. 01

Anbulla mahan raajaa-vukku,

Anbudanum ,aasai muthangaludanum ,amma ezhuthikkolvathu.Ingu un akka ramyaa-vukku,thirumanam nichayam seivathaaha ullom.Enave un palliyil viduppu eduththukkondu varavum.Maappillai ,veru yaarum illai unathu maamaathaan.Matrapadi ingu un appa,thangai aahiyor nalam.

Anbu muththangaludan,

Amma

Merkanda kadithaththai kandathum...naan adaintha mahizhchikku alave illai.Veetirkku poi en anbu thangaiaium,thaayaium akkavaium paarkka pohirom endra ninaippe iniththathu.Neenda naal kazhiththu ippozhuthaan oorukku pohiren.Irandu varudangalukku mun, en akka vayathukku vanthapothu ponathu.Atharkkuppin ippothuthaan poha santharppam kidaithirukkirathu.En appa bus transport la driver-aa velai paarkkiraar.kuraintha varumaanam .Thaazhntha kudumbaththai serntha en appa,kobakkaarar,palasaali.ooril avaraikandaal,ellorukkum payamthaan.Enakku vivaram therinthu ,6 aam vahuppu padikkum pothu hostel-il serthuvidappatten.

En amma iyer vahuppai sernthavar. Nalla sivappu. Olliyaaha, nadihai kaanjana pol irppaal.En appavukku kattaana udal vaahu.Maaniram.Iruvarum ore uyaraththil ,poruththamaana jodiyaaha irunthaarhal.Iruvarum kaathaliththu kalyaanam seithu kondavarhal.

5 naatkal viduppu kaditham ezhuthi koduththuvittu,palliyilirunthu aayiram kanavuhalodu bus pidiththen.

Amma ippothu eppadi iruppaal...,akka eppadi iruppaal...,thangai eppadi iruppaal,...oor eppadi irukkum endra palavitha kanavuhalodu payanam seithu engal kiraamaththai vanthadainthen.

Kiraamaththil bus nindrathum,irangi sutrum mutrum paarththen.Evvalavu maatrangal...viyanthukonde nadanthen.Adaiyaalam kandupidiththu veetai adainthen.

Thoorathileye ennai paarththuvitta en amma,kulungum mulaihalodu odi vanthu, ennai kattip pidiththukkondu,netriyil muththamittu,"Eai...eppadi valanthutte... vaa...vaa,thirusti sutri podanum"ena koorikkonde veettirkku koottip ponaal.Ethire vantha appa ,"ennadaa nallaa padikkirayaa...sari poi aahavendiya velaiaip paar" endru solli vittu, veeru velaiai kavanikka poi vttaar.Aduththu odi vantha en akka...asappil chinna vayathil,en amma eppadi irunthaalo appadi azhahudan ilamaiyaaha ,alavaana kavarchiudan,thaavani katti azhahup pathumaiyaai irunthaal. Maamaavukku etra azhahaana jodithaan akka.Maamaa koduththu vaiththavarthaan. En akkaavaip paarththukonde ...avalaip patri ninaiththukkondu irunthapothu,"eai ,ennada vanthathum varaathathumaa palaththa yosanai...ennaip paaththukitte nikkire...enna ennai paaththu asanthu poittiyaa?...enna ennai site adikkirayaa" endru kettuvittu,"podaa poi dress maaththittu ,saappidu"endru solli, enathu sooththil sellamaaha oru thattu thattivittu sendruvittaal.Aval en puttaththil thattiyathu enakku eppadio irunthathu.

Ange innoruththi gown aninthukondu marulum maan vizhikalodu ..bustiyaai,sivappaai ennai paarththukondu irunthaval,"Annaa,...enakku ennanna vaangittu vanthirukke" ena ketka ,Thangaikku ethum vaangikkondu varalaiye,en enni "aduththamurai varumpothu vaangi varren...kovichukkaathe...enna" endru sonnathum "sari anna",endru thalai aattivittu sendru vittaal.

Pirahu ,aruhil vantha ammavidam ,"maamaa enge?" ena ketka,"mele maadiyil irukkaan poi paar"endraval, ennai paarththu siriththuvittu, sooththu asainthaada nadanthu sendraal.Munne maathiri akka olliyaaha illai.Angange sathai pithungi kolu,kolu endru irunthaalum kundaaha theriyavillai.Maadi eri ,sivappaaha,azhahaaha iruntha en maamaavaip paarththu...(.Nadihar sarath baabu maathri nalla uyaram nalla udar kattu)..."maamaa"endren.

Etho padiththukkondirunthavar ,nimirnthu ennai koornthu paarththuvittu,"...adade...raajaavaa...eppadi irukke ,nallaa padikkirayaa" ena adukadukkaana kelvihal kettu vittu...enakkaaha vaangi vanthiruntha sila porutkalai eduththu kodukka ,naan athai paarththukkondirunthapothu,en akka angu vanthu ennai paarththukkonde,"ennadaa...romba thooram travel panni vanthirukke tired-aa illiyaa" ena kettuvittu,"paal venumnaa sollu paal tharren'endru sollikonde ,en maamaavai orakkannaal paarththu,...kannadiththu,mulaihalai moodi irukkum munthaanaiai sari seivathu pol ,maraiththiruntha munthaanaiai konjam vilakki,thanathu aaranju pazha size-i kaanbiththu...pin moodikkondaal.Enakku appothu athan arththam puriyavillai.

Maamaavai ,akka avarukku theriyaamal, vizhunguvathu pol paarththu nindraal.Enakko ondrum puriyavillai.Muthalil,...site adikkirayaa endru kettaal.Ippothu paal tharren engiraal.Ithan arththam puriyavillaiye en naan yosiththukkondirukkum pothe ,en maamaavai paarththu "vaazhaip pazham vachirukeengala ,maamaa"endru ketka,"periya pazhama vachirukken vaai niraya saappidalaam vaa" endru solla "asukku,pisukku...aasaiyaip paaru"endru solli,kolusu sala salakka,paavaadaiai thookkip pidiththukkondu odi vittaal.

Maamaavum "kuliththuvittu varuhirren "endru koori sendru vittaar.Araiyil thaniyaaha utkaarnthirukka enakku poradikkave ...thiranthiruntha maamaavin suit case-il , vera ethaavathu vaangi vaithirukkiraaraa endru therinthu kollum aasaiyil...eduththu paarththa pothu..jatti,pant,shirt...athukkum keele naalainthu kadithangal.Atharkkum keele inthu nesan,vaaliba virunthu ,love life ena pala puththahangal ange irunthana.Oru puththahaththai mella viriththu paarththa pothu...aan,pen nirvaana padangal vitha vithamaai colour-il pottirunthathai ...paarkka,paarkka aachariyamaahavum,athisayamaahavum irukka...udal verththu vittathu...(thruttu thanammai,puthiya visayangalai therinthu kondathaal).

Padikkavum ,paarkkavum aasaithaan ,aanaal,yaaraavathu paarththu vittaal...endra payam veru...enna seivathu endru yosithu mudivil,hostel-ukku eduththupoi vidalaam endru puththahangalai eduththukkondu,kadithangalai pettiyil thirumba vaikkap pohum pothu...

Mr.raja

14th lane,

5th cross street

West land

california

endra muhavariudan iruntha kadithaththil en amma kai ezhuththu theriya...thambikku akka kaditham ezhuthi irukkiraal...sari ,udane ithai kizhiththu podaamal maamaa etharkkaaha paththiramaaha vaithirukkiraar...endr ninaiththu kuzhambiyapadi...etharkkum irukkattum .padiththu paarkkalaam endru ellaa kadithangalaium eduththukkondu vanthu en paiyil vaiththukkonden.

Aduththa naal akkavukkum,maamaavukkum nichayam nadanthathu.En maamaa en ammaavaiye paarththukkondirukka...en amma jaadaiyil etho solla...athai purinthukondu amaithiyaanaar.

En maamaa 1 maathaathirkku munbu varai california-il irunthaar.Ippothuthaan india vanthirukkiraar .etho buisiness seihiraaraam. Enna buisiness endru engal yaarukkum sariyaaha theriyaathu.Amma aasaip pattathaal thaan,akkavai maamaavukku nichayam seihiraarhal.Appavukku ,akkaavai maamaavukku kattikodukka thulium istamillai.Ammaa thaan appavidam athaium ,ithaium solli nichayathirkku erppaadu seithirukkiraal.

En appa ,en ammaavai kalyaanam seiyirappo ammavukku vayasu 15 thaan,appo en maamaavukku vayasu 12. Moondru vayasu viththiyaasam.Siru vayathile maamaa mumbai poi...konja naal buisiness seithuvittu,appuram anga irunthu california sendru vittaaraam.En appa,en ammavai kaathaliththu kalyaanam seithukittaarnnu munnadiye solli irukken,antha kalyaanaththukku kooda maamaa varalayaam...amma solla kettirukkiren.

Maamaavukkum appavukkum ezhaam poruththam.Maamaavukku appaavaikkandaale konjam payam thaan.

Venda veruppaaha en appa nichayaththil kalanthu kondaar.En amma than munne ninnu aththanaium seithaal...(sontha thambiyoda nichaya thaarththam aache?)...Ippothu en ammavukku 34 vayasaahirathu.Aanaa,l paarppatharkku 20 vayasu pen pol ,enakku akkaa pol... ilamaiyaahave irunthaal.

Nichayam mudinthu ,uravinarhal pona pinnaal ,naanum hostel-ukku kizhambinen.Hostel-ukku vanthathum, andraikku viduppu kaditham koduththuvittu...udal nilai sari illaathathu pol paduththukkonden.Enakku en ennamellaam... eduththu vantha puththahangalai eppothu padippom endru ore ekkamaaha irunthathu.Udalil padapadappum, manathil inam puriyaatha aarvamum,thiruttuth thanamaana santhosamum undaanathu.Ennodu thangi iruntha room mats ponavudan, ezhunthu araik kathavai thaalittu...en paiyil naan eduththu vantha puththahangalaium,kadithangalaium eduththu enathu pettiyil vaiththuvittu...athil oru puththahaththai eduthu padikka aarambithen.

Antha puththahaththai padikkap padikka...ippadium nadakkumaa...pennukkul ivvalavu inbam irukkumaa..endru enakkul aachariya kelvihal ezha...irunthaalum irukkalaam, illamalaa puththhaththil poduvaarhal endru enakku naane samaathaanam seithukondu...innumennenna irukkum enbathai arium aaval en ullaththil muthan muraiyaaha ezhunthathu.

Padangalaip paarththu...aan nirvaanamaanaal ippadiththaan iruppaanaa...pen nirvaanamaanaal ippadithaan iruppaalaa...endru palavitha aacharya kelvihal.Pengalin nirvaana azhahu ennai mihavum kavarnthathu.Padangal oralavukku en santhehaththai theerththu vaiththaalum...avaihalai neril paarththu rasikka en manathil aasai undaanathu.puththahaththil iruntha kathayai padikka,padikka udambil ushnam eriyathu.

padiththukkondirukkum pothe en sunni methuvaaha neendu ,mele vaanaththai nokki ezha aarambiththathu.En idathu kaiyai, katti iruntha lungikkul vittu ,methuvaaha en viraiththa sunniai neevia padi antha puththahaththil iruntha kathaiai padikkap padikka...pothai thalaikeri,inba unarvuhal en udalengum paainthu ,athan ellaiai thoda thudiththathu.Naanum,en sunniai naane neevi vittukkolvathu suhamaaha irunthathaal...neevi ,en sunniai murukkikkonde...kathaiaip padiththu mudiththu vitten.

Naan padiththa kathaiyil aththai mahan ,maamaan mahalai okkiraan.Enakkum athu pol seiya aasai vanthaalum...maamaavukku ippathaan nichayam nadanthirukkuthu...appuram eppa kalyaanm aahi kuzhanthaiai ,athuvum pen kuzhanthai peththu ,athu aalaahi...eppo okkirathu endra ekkam enakkul piranthathu.

Padiththa puththahaththai vaiththuvittu,paikkulle irunthu...eduththu vantha kadithangalai eduththuvaiththu... thethi vaariyaa adukkinen.kadithaththin peruthal muhavari... maamaa address --m, anupputhal pakkaththil amma peyarum irunthathu .(In land letter)

17.05.1965 thethi itta kadithaththai piriththu padikka aarambithen.

Anbulla thambikku,

Anbu akkaavin aasai muththangal.Nee eppadi irukkiraai? Eppothu india varuvaai. Naan unnai ninaiththukondu thaan vaazhhiren.Naan pallikku sendru kondirunthaalum,eppothum un ninaivuthaan.Nee enge irukkiraai endru appa ,amma ,naan thedaatha idamillai.Nee engirunthaalum enakku kaditham poduvaai,ennai mmarakka maattaai endru ninaiththu aandavanai vendikkondirunthenAndavan en vendukolai etrukondu vittaan. Nee engirunthaalum santhosame.

Ini kadithathai en peyarukku ezhuthi...un peyarukku pathil ethaavathu pen peyaril pinnaal ezhuthi kaditham podu.Adikkadi un kadithaththai ethir paarkkum

Aasai muththangaludan ,un

Anbu akka

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Aduththa kadithaththai piriththu padiththaal,

2.07.1965

Anbulla thambikku,

Aasai muththangaludan, akka ezhuthikkolvathu.Naan inge nalam. Naan sonnapadi nee seithathaal veettil yaarukkum santheham varavillai.kadithaththai ennidam koduththu vittaarhal.Nee california-vil iruppathaaha ezhthi irukkiraai...angu enna seithu kondirukkiraai.Ennai avamaanaththilirunthu kaappaatriya unakku, eppadi nandi solvathendre theriyavillai.Eppothu india varuhiraai?En methu vadaiai soodaahavum ,suvaiyaahavum thara kaaththukkondirukkiren.

En methu vadaiai, thiruttu thanamaaha rusi paathathinaale thaan,nee ippothu california--vil irukkiraai.Inge pakkaththu veettil iruppavarum , california poha try pandraar.kidaiththapaaduthaan illai .foreign chance-nna summaavaa...enna? en methu vadaiai avarukku rusikka kodukkattumaa...summa thamaasukku sonnen.Muthalil rusi paaththavan nee.Nee paaththu unakku sonthammaana vadaiai rusikka koduththaal ,naan vendaam endru solla povathillai

Anbu akka

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16.08.1965

Anbulla thambikku,

Aasai muththangaludan akka ezhuthikkolvathu.En methu vadaiai nee rusi paarththa sambavam unakku maranthu poi irukkaathu.Irunthaalum, nee ennai ezhutha solli iruppathaal...ezhuthuhiren.padiththuvittu nee kai adiththaalum sari,allathu kai vasam yaaraavathu kannip pen irunthaal en kadithaththai padiththukkonde,avalai oththaalum sari...ezhuthuhiren...

Appothu pongal samayam,...nam veettula namma peththgavangalaale mudincha alavukku ,puthu thuni mani vaangi vachirunthaanga.Annaikku kaalaiyile namma oor koville visesam enpathaal ammavum ,appavum anga poi irunthaanga.Naan sex puththahaththe mihavum rasichu ,virumbi padippendrathu unakku theriyaathu.Namma pakkaththu veettu maami ,athu maathri puththahangalai yaarkiitte iruntho vaangittu vanthu ava padichuttu ,enakkum padikka koduppaa.

Appadi pongal special-a vanthuiruntha sex puththakaththe ,enakku padikka koduththirunthaa.Vettule amma,appa,nee irunthathaale ,athai en idaththule maraivaa vachirunthen.Athai udane padichu pakkanumnu en manam thulliyathu.Athai eppadaa padippomnu kaaththirunthen.Appathaan ammavum,appaavum visesa poojaikkaaha kovilukku poyirunthaanga.Neeyum un friends oda sernthu kittu vilayaada poitte.

Ithu thaan nalla santharppamnu nenaichu,velik kathavai summa saathittu puththahaththe eduththukittu bath room ponen.bath room kathavu repair-aa iruntha thaale,summa saaththittu...yaar varap poranga endra asattu thairiyathule...yaaraavathu vanthaakooda saththam ketkume,appa therinchukkalaamnnu mudivu senchu...katti iruntha thaavaniya uruvi pottu,ennoda iduppaium ,mulaingalaium,vayiththaium paaththu en udambai naane rasichukitten.en vayiththai naan nimunthu nikkirappo ennale paakka mudiyale.Antha alavukku mulainga peruththu munnaale thallikittu ninnathu.

Appuram jacket-a kazhatti kai vazhiyaa uruvi pottuttu...meendum ennoda mulaingalaium,vazha ,vazhaththa kaiaium paaththu rasichukkitten. Ennoda sekka sivantha udambu mela mulaingalai paathi maraichum,maraikkaamaium iruntha poo potta vellai colour bra-oda kum nnu nimunthu ninnamolaingalai paaththathum enakke amukki ,pisainchu vittukkalaam gira asai vanthathu. Pin bra vaium kazhatti pottu vittuen vayitraium,iduppaium,mulaihalaium kaihalaal thadavi,amukki pisainthu vittukkonden.Enakku mel moochu keel moochu vaangiyathu.

Yaaraavathu vanthu viduvaarhalo endra payam vera.Naan katti iruntha ore oru paavaadaiyium...(ul paavaadai katta villai)... kaal vazhiye kalatti bath roomiliruntha kodiyil potten.pin bath room kathavai adaiththu kolvatharkkaaha vaithiruntha kallai izhuththup pottu...(Bath roomukku thaal paal illai)... athil, ammanamaaha utkaarnthu suvatril saainthu konden. Pakkaththu veettu maami enakkum konjam,konjam sollikoduthirunthathinaal vasathiyaaha irunthathu.En pinchu mulaihal urandu thirandu maangani alavukku vanthathukku kaaranam ,maami azhththamaaha pisainthu vittathinnaalthaan.Naan maamiyidam eppadi sikkinen enbathai aduththa vaaram ezhuthuhiren.

Muzhu nirvaanamaaha kazhuththil mattum oru kavaring chain-i pottukkondu,kaal kolusuhaludan ammanamaaha naan utkaarnthiruntha azhahu ennaiye mayakkiyathu.Idathu kaiyaal puththahaththai eduththu viriththu...iduppai munnukku thalli...sempattai padarntha mudihaludaniruntha en pundai ,methuvaaha virinthu irukkum vahaiyil utkaarnthukondu...en valathu kaiyaal pundaiai neevi vittukkondirunthen.

Unarchi era aarambikka...methuvaaha en nadu viralai pundai vedippukkul vittu ulleyum,veliyeum izhuththu,izhuththu asaiththukondu irunthen.Oru nimidampundaikkul vittu viralai soruhi,soruhi eduppathum,aduththanimidam irandu mulkaihalaium thadavi pisainthu...sivanthu sempazhuppu niraththil iruntha kaambuhalai amukki,thiruhi ,killi viduvathu maai ...naan antha kaama kathaiai padiththukkondirukkum pothu,en pundaiyil irunthu then kasinthu veli ye vara iruntha neraththil...thideerendru thaduppukku pottiruntha kallai thallikkondu ,nee ulle vanthu vittaai.

Naanum padiththukkondiruntha puththahaththai appadiye pottu vittu,sadaarena ezhunthu kodiyil pottiruntha thaavanaiai eduththu maraiththukkondu,"Enda...inga vanthe...naan kulichitirukkirathu unakku theriyalaiyaa...veliye podaa" endru solla,nee angeye nindru kondu,en arai kurai ammana azhahai kanndu asanthupoi ,kangal viriya... manjal vaalaith thandaai valarnthiruntha en kaal azhahai rasiththuk kondu...otraiyaai polyester thaavani moodi irunthathaal,appattamaaha velith therintha en mulaihalin azhahu,pundai mettin azhahu,thodaihalin thiratchi aahiyavatrai utrup paarththa un kangalilum kaamam koppalikka...enakkum enna seivathendru theriyaamal.

Amma,appa veettil illai enbathaal,"amma...inge paarumma bath roomukkulle nulainchukittu intha thadiyan veliye poha mattengiraan"endru poi aaha kaththi,"poda...pombalai kulikkira idathule unakku ennadaa velai"endru naan ketkavum,nee..."vettukili onnu paranthu vanthathukkaa...atha pudikkathaan naan vanthen... (sutum,mutrum thedi kadaisiyil)...atho un thaavani mele thaan irukku "endru sollikkonde vettukkiliai pidikkum aarvaththil,en mulaihalin mel nee kai vaikka pohum samayam...(vettukilinna sinna vayasilirunthe enakku payam)...mulaihalai maraithukkondiruntha thaavaniyil vettkili irukkirathu endru nee sonnathaal ,payaththil ennaium maranthu kaiyil pidithiruntha athaavaniai keele pottu vittu unnai iruha kattikondu ,payaththil kangalai moodikkonden.

Kattip pidiththu nadungik kondiruntha en sooththai,methuvaaha pisainthapadi en kaathil,"vettukili paranthu poiduchukkaa"endru sollavum,payam thelinthu kangalai thiranthu paarththen.En kaihal un muthuhin melpadarnthu unnai anaithirukka ,en mulaihal un nenjil amungi ,pithungi kidanthathaip paarththu...vetkam pidungi thinna...en iru kaihalaal en muhaththai poththik kondu,unnai en kai viralhalin santhil naanaththudan paarkka...neeo,"akka ,nee kollai azhahaai irukke...unnai appadiye muththamittu kattip pidikkalaamaannu thonuthu,endrusolla,vetkaththudanum, naanaththudanum, "chei...podaa,enakku vetkamaayirukku",endru solli vittu...konja nera amaithikkup pin,"pakkaththu veettu maamiai vida azhahaa irukkenaa?" endru ketten.

Atharkku,nee"azhahula ,pakkaththu veettu maami un kitte pichai vaanganum,ava enna... konjam kalara irukkaa...vera enna avakitte irukku"endru solli,"akka ,enakku kaachchal varra maathri irukkuthukkaa"endrunee sollavum,naan en muhaththai moodi iruntha kaihalai eduththu,sivantha ithazhhal viriya siriththu,"Deai...ennai onnum seithidaatheda...ithu varaikkum poththi,poththi paathu kaaththu vanthen...inium ennai naan paathuhaaththukkolla mudiuminnu thonalaida...enge ennai maranthu nee seiyarathukkellam sarinnu solliduvanonnu enakku payamaayirukku....please...en azhahai rasichathu pothum...thappu,thandaa nadakkirathukku munnaale veliye poidudaa.... appuram,appa,amma vanthaa vambaayidum"endru naan sollikkonde keele kidantha thaavaniai edukka kuninthen.

Appothu,nee en pin pakkamaaha en sooththil,un sunni pattu azhunthi pithungum vannam,en sivantha muthuhin mel padarnthu,un iru kaihalaium pakkaththukku ondraai en udambil pattu vazhukkiyapadi irakki...pinchilirunthu kaayaai maariyiruntha en aapple kani mulaihalai thottu thazhuvi,thadavi kaambuhalai urasi,allip pidiththu methuvaaha pisainthathum...enakku ennavo pol aahi...en udalengum kaamak kanal kozhunthu vittu eriyath thuvanga,athai thaanga maattaathavalaai kangal soruha...pithatri en kaihalai un kaihalukku melaaha thadavi azhuththi...un kaihalin uthaviyaal en mulaihalai naane pisainthu kodukka....ithuthaan samayamendru nee en iru pinchu mulaihalaium koththaaha allip pidiththu ,istaththirkku kasakka...udal thalarnthu...kangal soruha...nirkka mudiyaatha nilaiyil..."deai...nikka mudiyalaidaa"endru sollavum,nee ennai kai thaangalaai ennai allith thookki ,antha bath room tharaiyileye padukka vaiththu...en maanganihalai kasakki,muharnthu,akkul vaasanaiai moochizhuththu muharnthu nimirntha nee,en pinchu mulaihalil ondrai un vaayil kavvikkondu, matrondrai un kaiaal kasakkik kondiruntha nee,Veri vanthavanaip pola en muhamengum naakkaal nakki ,muharnthu muththmittaai.

Appothuthaan naan,"deai unakku en mele unmaiyaai aasai irunthaal...ennoda pundaiai nakkudaa"endru sollavum...nee methuvaaha keelirangi,koochaththil irkkik kondiruntha en thirandu kozhuththa thodaihalai piriththu..."akka,paahu maathri vazhiyuthe...athu ennakka"ena ketkavum,"neeye paaththu solludaa"endru naan solla,enathu odungiya idaiaium,ahandru kozhuppudan meth endriruntha iduppaium...vazha,vazhaththa miruthuvaana paruthth en thodaihalai neevi vitta padi...nee keele kuninthu vazhinthirunthathai muharnthu paarththu,"akka,thaazhampoo vaasanai adikkuthukkaa...ethaavathu thaalampoovai unnoda ithukkulle soruhi vachirunthjiyaa?"ena nee ketkavum,"poda...ivane..."endru solli naan siriththen.